When I Get Older, I Will Be Alright!!

 

You would not believe how many times I stated these words when I was younger: “When I get older, I will be good.”  I do not know why but Young Trellie always believe that being an adult meant things would go better.  That was such a broad and wrong accusation 🤣. In fact, when I got older, things really got more complicated lol.  The idea that growing up would fix everything was so crazy, but I actually believed it lol.  Childhood issues or problems (some, not all) were minimal compared to the things we face as adults lol.  Also, the concept of waiting for something before you can do anything is a theory I cannot get with anymore.  The thought that I must wait on this “level up” in order to be happy just is a bunch of bologna. Why wait to do something if I have the tools and desire to do it now?  I once found myself in this type of hole whenever I was studying for my engineering exam.  For some reason, I felt like certain things could not be done until it was completed. It took me a while, but I did get over that mindset. Also, eventually I got over that hurdle (test) too.  Nowadays, I go with the flow. This whole concept of getting everything perfect before doing something will keep you stuck forever.  If that was the case, my blog would still be a thought lol.  I had to put perfection aside and just go with what I had.  Sometimes, if we just start it then the rest will reveal itself.  So Young Trellie you were wrong, I will not be alright when I grow up; but, you know what?  That is okay!  I am learning and continuing to grow in this thing called adulthood.  Oh yeah, did I mention, I HATE IT HERE!

FYI: See picture above for me patiently waiting for this perfect life Young Trellie envisioned!! 🤣🤣

🤔Who Is The Favorite?🤔

 

Growing up I do not think I ever once wondered who the favorite sibling was. Maybe it is because for majority of my life I was kind of the only child in the house.  Therefore, I had no one to share the parentals with lol. However, the older I get Trellie Trell ponders more on this topic, and it is quite clear that the favorite is me lol 🤷. Now, I am not saying I had any special treatment growing up (I did 🤣) because that was not the case.  My parents still instilled the same values/love in me that they did in my older siblings. However, I do realize small things now that I am older that did not register to me as a kid. One story that comes to mind, is when my Pops bought me a mini weed eater because the larger one was too long for me at that time.  Now to you that makes sense, but I can recall my older brother at my age struggling with the larger weed eater lol.  Pops really did not care about him (just kidding) lol. I only came to this realization maybe a month or two ago that both parents may have loved me more lol (just joking). It was also brought to my attention recently by a reliable source that maybe my favoritism extended outside of my home too.  Apparently, I was the favorite at the cousins home too. Well, that was until they had their own son lol.  So, I guess I had to share the title then lol. If you are sitting and wondering if you are the favorite? Let me help you, you are not lol.  The favorite never wonders 🤷 (harsh I know) lol. This topic alone helps me confirm that: I hate adulthood lol.  Being the favorite and an adult really does not give you much leverage.  However, I do get my favorite meals whenever I go home!! That is a blessing in itself!!